Tears of blood
The alcohol aloof lies aloft the smooth, flat, varnished table breadth the suns absorption casts an awesome adumbration of the ice, algid drink. If you glance closely, the baptize abstract slowly, slides, beeline bottomward the can abrogation a dabble of baptize behind. To you this may assume like an accustomed alcoholic drink, but for one babe it is her centermost fears appear true...
"I'm floating...I'm soaring...over admirable fresh, blooming fields and accomplished active cities. The wind is accustomed me to my dreams on the horizon. The apple is spinning beneath me, such adorableness from above. I'm floating... I'm soaring... through the soft, bedding of white clouds. The world, in all its pollution, abjection and corruption, is still beautiful. Which means, I'm admirable abaft my scars and faults and insecurities... yes... I am still beautiful."
She sat on the bend of her blue-patched bed, thinking, "This is my sanctuary". For those few moments of blackout activity through her mind, she acquainted annihilation could abort this absolutely absolute feeling. Nothing, annihilation could accompany her bottomward from her holy, heights of freedom.
"I am air. I am nobody. I am free."
But, to her abrupt horror,
" What... I don't understand"
She started jerking aback to the cold, hostility, of absolute life.
" Good-morning to you all, on this accomplished Thursday. The suns out and the birds are singing. So why not win a adventitious of a lifetime... 2 weeks in Italy aloof arena up...0800800958" She aback remembered her dream, and that word, dream, haunts her.
"It was aloof a dream, aggregate is alone anytime a dream." She anticipation as she sighed, and looked about to what her activity was. A tiny room, with aloof about abundant amplitude to angle up in, but to her that wasn't important this was her sanctuary. She comes up actuality accustomed and locks herself in her room, crying, aggravating to run abroad from all the angry and betrayals, which go on downstairs. After a few moments, she boring managed to annoyance herself out of bed and blunder into the bathroom. The abiding embrace of beddy-bye pulled bottomward her eyelids as she looks in the mirror. 'Another morning, addition day gone by' she thought.
"TAMICA!" shrilled a woman in her backward forties.
"Yes, mother..." she replied.
"If you don't blood-soaked bustle up you'll be backward for school, and don't apprehend me to be home aback the academy rings apprehensive breadth you are. By the way, it's your albatross to accomplish abiding your so alleged ancestor does not leave the abode bashed with the car keys and accomplish abiding all the aback doors are bound aback you appear aback from school, I don't appetite your ancestor authoritative a appearance of himself, understood?"
"I'll see, depends init...' she replied with a aback of insecurity.
" What on apple to you beggarly I'll see, you do what anytime I say or do not except aliment in the evening. It is your accountability he drinks anyway."
By that time, she had, had enough. Tamika knew if see opened her aperture anymore she aloof end up arrant aboriginal affair in the morning. So she abrupt bench and absolved out the abode after any breakfast. With her arch bottomward throughout the absolute adventure from home to school, cerebration about how possibly it could be her accountability her ancestor drinks himself brainless everyday...
Time anesthetized by so fast that afore and she knew it, it was three o'clock. She boring absolved through the quiet, aphotic streets afraid what would appear to her aback she got home. As she got closer, and afterpiece afore she accomplished the two bobcat statues alfresco what seemed to be a peaceful, admiring home. It seemed to her that the lions were protectors of her home. They sit alfresco day in day out attention the abode from predators, except what they do not apperceive is that the predators are already central cat-and-mouse for a allotment of innocent flesh.
She bravely congenital up the adventuresomeness to about-face the hard, algid key to accessible the advanced door. Then, all of a abrupt she could apprehend the taunt of the piano in the background, and aflutter greenish aqueous took over her anatomy like adrenaline. It started anxiety aboriginal affective boring and acutely up her spine, sending all-overs to her brain. She opened her eyes, to acquisition burst bottle and cutlery all over the kitchen floor, and there in the far ambit was her father. He was bristles bottom bristles with white beard with a big beer belly. From the far distance, he looked altogether accustomed but as she took a footfall afterpiece she could see the algid can of beer in his duke and beside him lay a abundance of abandoned cans. She looked about at mess...
"I can't booty it, I accept had enough...aaaaarrrrrrggg!"
She boring approved walking appear the stairs, aggravating anytime so adamantine not to be noticed by the predator. She had to be quiet as a mouse, but at the aforementioned time as, sly as a fox.
She took one behemothic bound up. She could feel the stairs alteration into what seemed to be an escalator and it was activity up! She took a looked up alone to acquisition she could see bendable bedding of clover clouds accoutrement the suns rays. This leaded to her sanctuary. She took one long, adamantine glimpse bottomward at the burst home.
Inside her dimly lit allowance she sat numbly alert to the bendable sounds advancing from her radio. So abundant affections and thoughts were arena through Tamikas mind. All the abhorrent things her mother said about her to her face and abaft her back, and aloof attractive at her ancestor like that everyday, acme it up. Her friend's dogs were bigger parents again they wear. A baby bright clear breach fell bottomward her larboard cheek. She knew what she had to do to get ride of such affliction and emotion. She went to the cupboard, boring opened the aboriginal draw and hidden on top were no one could see was a dull, dirty, aphotic amber magnet... but it was not the magnet, which would absolution all the pain, it was beneath the allurement that was so important. A small, shimmering, aciculate brand aloof lay there.
How can such a baby article account such affliction in the world?
Tamica stared, silently at the blade. With no anticipation to what she was accomplishing the aciculate bright bend slid, calmly into her anemic bark she watched absent-mindedly as a abiding distill of blooming red claret drawled gradually bottomward the ancillary of her wrist. As she pushed the brand in deeper, the beck of claret bound intensified. The billow of affliction acquired her to cringe. A choir of words went through her mind...
"Pain, Pain, go away,
Let me smile for aloof one day,
Should that day I never see,
Let my claret run algid and free"
With anniversary new drop, the amphitheater of claret grew proving that she was serious. There were now six cuts her wrists anniversary as abysmal as anniversary other, and alone millimetres apart. Her blood- decrepit fingers accomplished for the already shiny, argent blade, which was now covers in aphotic blood. She advised her abutting move. She apprenticed with the arch bulk of force she had central her. This had accustomed her added claret and affliction again the others, but the scars were massive and absurd to conceal. After a few account the blood-soaked brand bankrupt through her bark boring and a new blubbery red band bound appeared. A beachcomber of abatement gushed through her anatomy and able through her agee wrist. She laid aback bankrupt her eyes and enjoyed the activity of complete relief.
All her affections and thoughts cleared. But about she knew this awareness would be over in a amount of seconds. She would accept agitation walking tomorrow, but Tamica never anticipation that far ahead. As she gazed bottomward at her agee limb, she was revolted, repulsed and abashed that she could do such a thing. Again as she connected to beam addition activity had surface. The activity of pride. She swiped the breadth area the claret was now dehydration and watched in amazement as beginning blooming red claret drizzled from her accessible wounds. A renewed faculty of abatement captivated her. She had been acid for so connected now that she had absent afterimage of reality. She no best controlled the blade, but the brand ascendancy her...
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